The thing about life is that at any given moment, something might, and most likely will happen, that will knock the wind out of you and leave you wondering, starry eyed, what the hell just happened.
If you are lucky, it will be one thing, if you are very lucky it will be all things. As it is said, when it rains, it pours
That is how 2013 has been for me, it has been pouring. I remember telling myself that this was going to be a year of change...a shift of some kind, what exactly, i was not sure. Well, i guess the shock is on me because CHANGE does not even begin to describe what this year has been like.
My wings were clipped, my foundation shattered, my walls crumbled and the roof...well am not sure whether it is still in place :-(
There is literally no part of my life that was not touched...none at all. Well i guess the gods had it in for me this time.
Looking back at it, i just have no words at all. Just a physical ache in my heart, while some kind of defeated sigh escapes my body. If i was in a boxing ring i would surrender right now, defeated and acknowledge that life wins, hands down. It indeed the master here, no questions asked.
But then i imagine lying on that ring, look around and realize that i am still here. That despite its hardest blows and kick ass whooping, i am indeed still here. Maybe it is luck, maybe by design or maybe just by the sheer will to survive within me. But i am still here.
IT happened. There is no avoiding it, no forgetting. No running away, or flying, or burying, or hiding.
But i survived. Period!
This year i just survived...! Yes...i just survived Muphy's law through and through...!, if there is nothing else i did.
At this point, (at the risk of figuratively having my knees crashed and legs broken before the year is over), me being me, i am tempted to look life straight in the eye, tongue out and make a cheeky face, just to mock its plots. Hehehe! Instead, i raise my eyes towards the sky and whisper a thank you to my creator, for yet another chance to do it all over again.
So here is to another year....here is to 2014. Please be good to me!