A Day in her Life...

'I am hungry' He said
She looked at him, as if seeing him for the first time. Yet he had been leaning on her leg for an hour now.
'I know' She replied. Angry.
She looked around her. And quickly tried to choke down the emotion that was rising in her throat. Only that her quickly seemed like eternity.

She could feel the ball of anger, more like a ball of fire, slide down her throat, slowly, as if on a mission to kill her.
For a while she could not breath, did not want to breathe.
She was suffocating. She closed her eyes. 
She knew that if she let herself have the luxury of letting that breath come out of her, then the flood would follow.
And she could not cry at this time.

Not in front of him.

*********
'Dear Lord,I come before you this night' She started.

She opened her eyes. Then closed them again. She could see a star moving around in the darkness. It distracted her.
She opened her eyes again. Looked at her hands, clasped in prayer.

She thought about what she wanted to ask for.

Just then her son moved. He had eventually cried himself to sleep.
She looked at him.

'I want to say thank you. Amen.'
And then like a mad woman, she jumped on her feet and ran out.

She knew what he needed. And sitting there talking to herself would not get her that. She thought. HE must understand. HE should understand.

For now, she had to find food.



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