The Musings of Kajuzi!

Lazy, Nyika (bush people), illiterate, ignorant and LAZY! I bet somewhere they have coined a riddle to this effect by now. If they haven't then here it is,  'What is lazy, illiterate and ignorant?!' Heheheh! First, i am tribal! Yes, I am indeed tribal. And i feel that as a Kenyan, i need not explain myself, because you get me, right? Yes, i know you do. Secondly, i never like being on the losing side. No, i like winning. It is like an addiction that drives me so insane that one way or another i have to go back and take that one last sniff.  Only that i definitely know that it will not be the last, just like any addiction. So you can imagine my deeply entrenched agony then to belong to the nine tribes of the Kenyan Coast! One way or another, in the course of my almost adult and adult life, i have always found myself defending the reputation, actions and mindset of my people. I have found myself coming up with explanations, rationalities and even excuses for what ...

Yes...i know, i am told we are evolutionary species, and we do change with time. That is what is expected, anyway. But is it possible, really, that these brothers of ours are catching up? Could there be a new version of men, walking among us? :-) I had a cherished visit from one of my log-book relatives from my dad's side yesterday, the very few who contact us anyway, and it was very interesting. Like any long lost 'relatives' we were updating each other on all the new development in our lives. It was a nice nostalgic experience we had, really. Among the many new things that had happened to this boy, is that he had gotten a girl pregnant, moved her in with him, is paying for her school and is now raising a two year old girl while the mama is in school in another county! Not surprised? Well, this boy, the one doing all these things, this boy, is just 22 years old!!! Pardon me for acting so surprised, i was actually more angry as he was telling me all these stories. ...

'Don’t mock the restless and the discontented. They change the world. The rest just accept and settle.' ~ Anonymous. It is official, I am a very restless and discontented human being! I hope you get what I mean. Its not that I am so ungrateful, no.   I am just not so good in ok situations and often very unhappy in uneventful environments. I like running up and down doing 'something'. And if I cant do that, then I bury myself in books, movies or run off to my safe place, my sanctuary, my head! Yesterday, I got to watch one of the greatest movies ever made in 2013. The Butler . And I wept my eyes out. So here is this old man, loyal and committed to the status quo no matter how much it hurt him. Served almost six American administrations in the white house. He knew his place and kept to it. Did the best he could. Outside, others were fighting for change. He survives it all. And gets to see the glorious end in 2008. But I went to bed wondering, what was his ro...

Murphy's law states simply that  " Anything that can go wrong, will go wrong ." The thing about life is that at any given moment, something might, and most likely will happen, that will knock the wind out of you and leave you wondering, starry eyed, what the hell just happened. If you are lucky, it will be one thing, if you are very lucky it will be all things. As it is said, when it rains, it pours . That is how 2013 has been for me, it has been pouring. I remember telling myself that this was going to be a year of change...a shift of some kind, what exactly, i was not sure. Well, i guess the shock is on me because CHANGE does not even begin to describe what this year has been like.  My wings were clipped, my foundation shattered, my walls crumbled and the roof...well am not sure whether it is still in place :-( There is literally no part of my life that was not touched...none at all. Well i guess the gods had it in for me this time. Looking back at it, i...

Have you ever felt like you want to poke life? Like you want to do something so stupid and amazing that life will go like waaat? Yes, lately i have been feeling that way. I feel like this life has been pulling pranks on me, and asking me react to what it gives me, and i feel like a puppet. An angry puppet for that matter!! So now, i have decided, i am going to have my own person, with a name, and a everything else, and get to know what it really means to own people! To control the strings. Exciting huh?! I know! And that's what makes it awesome ;-). I mean, if i can't have a say in my life, i might a well have a say in someone else's life...even if that someone is just a creation! I know you will think i am weird...i know you will. But humor me if you will and join me in this adventure of a girl, lets call her Nadima, yes Nadima. So this girl Nadima, is say 26 years old, confused and just has no idea what she wants from life. She is an intelligent girl, jus...

Today, i finally moved my tongue. In my dream, my tongue moved! My voice was not so audible, but i uttered something. "Burn, burn!!!" I kept repeating. Not so strange you think?!  Well you do not know my frustrations! For a very long time in my life...i have been having this dream where i can not speak. My tongue is usually so heavy i can not move it no matter how hard i try. My voice disappears and my mouth can not open. At the same time, usually there is something very bad happening around that i am supposed to speak to, but all the time, i always i end up not being able to speak! It is such a frustrating and scary experience i tell you. You have to live it to understand. Now, i live in a community where we believe that dreams are a manifestation of everyday life. It is in dreams that we at times get to continue and create our waking realities. Thereby...what happens in our dreams is sealed in our realities and what happens in our realities can at times be undone in ...

I have always been the type of girl who reads between the lines, even when there is nothing to read there. I really believe that people say a lot from what they are not saying...and that you can tell a lot about some one from the shape of their fingers, the shape of their necks, to the length and feel of their names.  Some one named Maureen would definitely have to be big bodied (from the length of the name) and grounded ( from the letter M, which is stable in its standing). Reading between the lines, they say, can save you from a crappy relationship or a bad investment, you just have to be keen. And after watching quite too much of the Mentalist and Criminal minds kind of shows, i think i have perfected my art.Come to think of it, i probably should open a psychic shop ;-) So the other day i was talking to this guy about this friend of his who had all of a sudden developed a certain interest on me. From nowhere, this person was everywhere i looked...from my fb page to my mail...